Hey everyone, I know I have not been very active the past few months. There has not been a lot of art making and all the things I usually do. I've taken a step back and been focusing more on my health than anything as I prepare for the big day which is right around the corner. March 9th, this coming Monday, I will be going for full gastric bypass surgery so I can finally shed away 28 years worth of pounds that I had been amassing since I was a kindergartener. I am so ready for this, I wish I was on that table right now. I would have thought I'd feel fear and trepidation, but the only thing I can see in my mind's eye is a much smaller, healthier, more confident me. I want to know what is hiding beneath all the fat. I am going to shed away years of abuse, depression, grief, and eating out of loneliness. I feel like a caterpillar about to go into a cocoon only to metamorph into a beautiful butterfly.
With that all said, I also need to be realistic and know that there is a very small risk I could have complications or even die, even though the risk is .1%. I don't have a written will, but I suppose this can be my will right here. In the event I don't make it (god forbid), I want my closest friends to have all of my material things- it's mostly toys, anime stuff, comics and videogames. I don't own anything of super great value, but hey... I think my stuff is pretty great lol. The friends who can divvy up my goods (you guys can fight it out on who gets what) are Jessica and Janelyn WIlliams, Penney Guiles, David Lanni, Mike Mohnach, Mike Sleigher, Rebecca Smith, Thalia DeJesus, Veronica Jenkins, and Fawn Senece. My nieces and nephews can have the family heirlooms, things that belonged to my mom and grandparents. Those things are extremely special, which also include all of my original artwork, jewelry, sculpture, etc.- but please make sure I am cremated or buried with my Boppy (y'all know what my Boppy is, my beloved baby blanket that I cannot live or die without). Also I would like to have my ashes dumped in the ocean so I can be with the fish and sharks, but if not it's okay to bury me-- under a tree would be nice. You guys can have my money too, whatever little there is- use it for funeral expenses. I guess that covers it... oh and someone has to take care of my fish! Maybe Penney? Anyway I had to get that morbid bit out of the way.... Hope I didn't ruin anyone's day there lol.
In the very likely event I do survive this surgery and I come out of it okay, I am very excited to go to my best friend Thalia's wedding on August 29th this year, and who knows what size dress I'll be wearing! I look forward to surprising people who've only known the heavy me. I look forward to slipping into those pretty goal clothes I saved since I was 15. I look forward to looking down and being able to see my feet without a huge belly in the way. I cannot wait!!! I am never going back, I will follow the diet to the letter and no longer walk the line of pre-diabetis, high cancer risk, heart disease, etc. I am too damn young for all of that.
Lastly, I wanna let you all know I love you guys and thanks for being my friends. Wish me luck on Monday!
Update: My surgery has been postponed because I did not lose enough weight beforehand. I'll be going back for a weigh-in and re-evaluation April 2nd, so between now and then I have to step up my game big time. It's a bit of a let down, but at the same time I know the surgeon needs my liver to shrink to make the operating conditions ideal and he wants me to prove to him that I am really serious about this, and that I won't deviate and risk overeating after surgery. Wish me luck, time to get very strict.
12/24/14 OtakuDzNs Etsy shop re-open for business!
I have finally gotten all of my various art gigs and jewelry for sale up on Etsy, ready to go! Don’t let these pretties sit around and collect dust, order some nice handmade jewelry today ^<^ Your patronage would help me greatly with various medical expenses (I need a denture molar, orthotic shoes and arch supports for my flat feet- insurance does not cover these things! Oh and I am going to be having gastric bypass surgery in March, so I’ll be out of work, therefore no income for a month post-op. I really do need some help! =>= Please…) Merry Christmas everyone!
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